A Better Understanding

Better Understanding

"I have other people in my life that I have to pay attention to more than you, don't think that I don't think about you just because I'm not texting you and calling you."

Jeez I get it now. I really do...the past few days this dumb bird been blowin my shit up and tripping, if I don't answer right away or come chill or anything like that you know. I will say this to clear up any misconceptions, when I do think of this person however it's never really a good thought. It's more like complete and utter aggravation, hahaha. So today I really got the message...

Not in the same exact situation but rather close I would say. The bird makes me feel bad for many reasons. I do not like her nor am I dating her but she's clinging sorta, it's weird cuz she's weird. I'm cutting her loose and all but this ending situation made me think of these words, who said them to me, and why they said them to me.

I guess what I'm trying to say is, I'm sorry, you know exactly who you are...all I can say is I'm deeply sorry for many things that have come to light about myself in the past few months. I realize the way you precieve my actions and the way that I truly mean them. I gotta say that was always a problem. Misunderstandings...

Like I was saying today I got a dose of my own stupidity and my own faults. It's far too late to ever get the opportunity to ever correct them but I would like to let that person know how deeply sorry I am, for everything. From ungratefulness to plain mistrust I swear it bothers me to think I thought so little of a person I said I loved and cared so much about. Anyway that's a little bit of what's left of my remains called a heart. Til next time..

-Hazey

PS btw I hope that you (and you know who you are) don't think that everytime I hit you up it's for something. It's not like that I just don't want to interrupt your life and all with my nonsense, you gotta remember I'm nothing but trouble lol.