Conspiracy

Tell me why life seems to have it out for me
the day to day life of it all seems to speak in sing
the things that just can't ever be
somebody please help me see.
What kind of conspiracy life has on me
somebody explain to me this conspiracy against me....

-Hazey

You know there's nothing quite like losing it all. Believe me I would know what it looks like, feels like, sounds like, smells like, and what these things can do to you. So please spare me with your speeches on somebody elses misfortune. I don't want to hear them. These words seem harsh but you know what I don't care. I have been at the bottom of the pool for a long time. To be honest I've been down here most of my got damn life. I know what its like to sleep three by the foot and two by the head board. I know all about government issued housing and food. I've seen what greed can do to a man. I've also seen what the streets can do to a person. I've lost a lot of myself in just under 20 years. So I don't wanna hear about the poverty in America and the struggle that people go through here. I know people in other countries have it worse but you know what...I am struggling my damn self I don't have time to make myself feel appreciative of what I have. I already am! Nevermind I don't have much to MY name. To be honest I wont have a house in three months but hey maybe thats just not enough for the rest of you to just understand my frustration. I have been trying so got DAMN hard to get on my fucking feet for three got damn years. Damnit I worked to put gas in my car to drive my happy ass to high school...why because I had no choice...I have to pull all my college tuition myself...You know i asked God to allow me to struggle because I was so used to it...hahah...dear God...why did you listen to my dumb ass...I've been on so many GOT DAMN interviews that this week alone!, I went on four! count em....uno....dose...tres...cuatro!....FOUR!...not one of them...not a single one was worth my fucking time really....i swear...

"Effort is supposed to be a tree that bears fruit, howcome in Atlanta the tree was cut down...?!"

Heartbreaker

Heartbreaker

Whilst the guns are still firing,
Smoke clouding vision as far as one can see,
How is it that when I once saw your face,
I no longer see anyone at all,
I fear not being alone amongst the battle,
Rather I fear being in silence alone...

Some one please show me the way, this war is tiring,
War solves the problems of how they fell overseas,
Yet doesn't explain the why they were there in the first place,
Weakness is a plague that makes us fall,
To my knees? No, never will I succomb to such a rattle,
But the pain is something a man can not handle on his own...

-Hazey

"Damn, somebody gotta help me with this one, been tryna figure out you know, wha...what, what did I do? Heartbreaker... I didn't see this one coming... ...  "- Tank- I hate you (prologue)

From across the room

I think I finally figured out what it is like to love from a far-
You don't realize it at first but you catch yourself really-
Paying attention to a person who pays you no mind-
You eventually know them better than you do your own car-
You think your perfect for them and you mean it sincerely-
But they always over look you somehow time after time-
Then one day you get your chance and approach them hopeful-
Just to find out they are taken by a bastard of a man-
Who you once knew, and know won't treat them just-
Then one day some one approaches you with eyes all full-
With love in their heart and a true match for you as a man-
Now the woman you once wanted is broken by lust-
For some reason she runs into you showing you the wreck-
That wreck you once desired with all the blood in your heart-
Now you realize why God never allowed her to look your way-
When you look in her eyes they aren't loving, or kind, or full of respect.-
No, they are vengeful and untrustworthy, once you see that hahaha man it's so much easier to get through your day :)-

-Hazey

When oso decides to speak up

Dammit I love you...

All I Wanted by Paramore is in fact what I feel for you. Betterman is how I feel about how you make me feel. Sex with you is literally how I feel when it comes to making love with you. Never let this go is what my heart sings when I think about you. Extra special still plays in my heart. A little bit is how I feel when I see your online. When I sit next to you violet hill plays. When I look you in the eyes the world some how just stops existing and life as I know it ends, yet you...you still remain. You are the calm center of the hurricane in my heart and mind...but I know where the line is drawn in the sand. Fear you or what you can do to me? No, never. Believe me when you are done and gone, I'll be just fine. I'll be fine, just fine...

Shoot to Kill

Man- Please don't hold back
Woman- (All I Wanted Was You)...
Man- refraining does more damage to me
Woman- (All I Wanted Was You)...
Man- just what ever you do don't hold that
Woman- (All I Wanted Was You)...
Man- say what must be said for me to see
Woman- (All I Wanted Was You)...
Man- let things be what they must
Woman- (All I Wanted Was You)...
Man- my life isn't worth the stress or strife
Woman- (All I Wanted Was You)...
Man- that memory has died and turned to rust
Woman- (All I Wanted Was You)...
Man- believe me its okay to take my life
Woman- (All I Wanted Was You)...
Man- no need to cry for what must be done
Woman- (All I Wanted Was You)...
Man- we knew it would come to this very living will
Woman- (All I Wanted Was You)...
Man- lover, friend, major part of my life, all are one
Woman- (All I Wanted Was You)...
Man- please don't fight it, please just promise me you'll shoot to kill
Woman- (All I Wanted Was You)...(All I Wanted Was You)...(All I Wanted Was You)...

*single shot fired*

-Hazey

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