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its been a while since i last wrote something so here you go

as the ranch boys say "something light for the crowd"

I wish I could put this feeling into words

make it an action yes a verb

not just something that is heard

this feeling has meaning

this action has depth

i think my hearts still bleeding

when will be the first day we've met

a bittersweet union

something so unkept

yet something so needed

you know so many people

and connect so many hearts

you drive them to do whats illegal

but are a flame that began with a spark

or smile with a laugh

a familiarity with the past

i think its one word just four letters?

the question when will love last?

-Haze

what does that feel like?

Do you know how good it feels to be around someone who knows you so well? The comfort of not having to explain anything?

truth is...

I don't...

no one does...

no one took the time...or I never gave anyone the chance...

what does that feel like?
I've always wondered...will I ever know?
who knows...

-Haze

when life gets in the way

So as many of you know im at the Ranch. Everyday is like no other day here, well atleast for me it isn't. There are people getting fired and people getting hired. There are boys coming and boys going. The one thing that remains the same here to me is that the problems alwasy remain the same and seem to never have a solution in sight.

I'm not in school (-__-) but its okay it appears God has a different plan in mind for me than what I had. You know they say man plans and God laughs. I have a job now with sketchers. I am looking for a second to make a way for me to move out of the ranch. I want to save my money to put towards repairing my car. We shall see what happens right?

I am 21 and single, awesome! (this is said with sarcasm by the way)

I realized that I have such high expectations for myself that it literally takes somebody else to tell me I am doing just fine for me to realize wtf I have. I have been here for 4 weeks and some of the boys want me to work here and so do some of the staff. Well for some reason I feel like her opinion is bit biased, lol.

til next time

peace, love & faith
-Hazey