Don't judge me

This song has been plucking the strings in my soul for a month now.

I could never really understand why, but I do now.

it applies to US.

• i have heard you will sleep with anyone
• i have heard you aren't really in to me like that
• i have heard you have done this with alot of guys where you are just going along with whatever we say because you don't know how to say you arent interested anymore
• i have heard you are dangerously unpredictable
• i have heard you are a cheater
• i have heard that kissing and holding hands is nothing to you, you can do it with anybody

i have heard so much about you....and I see everything you are capable of...
AND NOTHING I HAVE HEARD HAS CHANGED MY MIND ABOUT YOU!

I'm not sure if I am stupid, blinded, naive, foolish, or what.

But none of that matters to me...

• Does it make my eyebrow raise? YES!
• Does it make me question what I am doing? YES!
• Does my judgement come into question with you? HELL YES!

I shouldn't even be thinking about someone like you by societies standards.

BUT I CAN NOT JUDGE YOU! I CAN NOT. I have gotten to know you and I have seen that God has put you through alot, alot more than many others. the path that he has lead you down is not entirely your fault. You made decisions praying and hoping for the best. I can not say that you did anything in your past that is talked about with malice in your heart. 

I learned something tho, about myself, I am a person who gives second chances. My job was about changing lives, and let me be clear I am not trying to change you, I am trying to be the change in your life. I want to be that new difference that changes what people say about you.

I can see it in your eyes, in your voice that I am NOT WHAT YOU are used to. You are used to being used, being the facilitator, the man in the relationship, the controller of the relationship. I want to be that change.

I am not perfect, but I might be what you need because I believe that you are someone I need to experience...

-Haze